November 30th

October 19th

this was posted previously, looked more like a figure's head or a skull at the time. oil on canvas, 36" x 36"

August 24th

"sometimes I see you in my dreams" oil and crayon on panel, 20"x24"

August 19th

some revisions made, these were posted previously but have now finally been completed.

From the diary of Anais Nin, thought it paralleled and summed up this process slightly, "The book is not finished, only half done, because I write the emotional pages first, without order, and then I have to fill in and construct. I have been in a serious, solitary mood, withdrawn, knowing only the austere joys of work."

August 11th

Get to the point where there are visible signs of the past. Marks left behind or the sense that things that were deemed unnecessary or just bad for the painting were covered up. The layers on top are something more complete, fresh and somewhat resolved or just resolved enough (can never be quite certain) what will make this a better solution? how can I work this out? inner monologue asks the same. a language of marks, shapes and colour. language is so maleable and can take so many forms and combinations.

july 28th

july 20th

oil on panel, 20"x24"

oil on panel, 20"x24"

previously I used to rely on a narrative that was a direct reading of people, place and things that had become didactic. at this time I have shifted to using words to describe memories that play as an inner dialog when I work. some get written as a fragmented prose that gets stored away for later. other times a glimpse of something from life, a decorative border on a book, the wearing away of a wall or a stain on a sidewalk is also torn from the original and stored for later reference. These things inform the narrative account of subjective moments. fragments form the pieces and the painting becomes the account of trying to piece together and make sense of these fragments. things are omitted and editing occurs along the way, not unlike the way we work to filter through and question the subconscious's inner "goings on".

some new stained paintings, completed over the last two months

May 21st, lastest and possibly finished...

March 31st, 2011

acrylic and spray paint on raw canvas

March 16-17, 2011

I should probably start dating these as they are still being worked on and have been for the past 6 months. Today I was thinking about Asger Jorn's detourned paintings today...might for a little while.

On the 17th I completely reworked these, this is what remains. I was more interested in small portions of the paintings, the parts rather than the whole.

Purposely left undone, these were the loosest areas and places where I saw something going on... that again was more mysterious and interesting than the big picture.

some new work...

pedro lost his head and is now repainted

acrylic on canvas approx. 36"x38"

all others approx. the same size but in oil on canvas

Ode to a Sailor, all of the work in the finished stage.

Pedro's paintings,

he looked sick, sicker than usual

what were some of the things he used to say?

what were his dreams?

always felt like he loved me, not in a good way

I think he said it once to me

here they are for eternity

he was a fisherman

Wednesday, January 5th, 2011

so gray outside and I am thinking about last weekend when the sun was so bright. We were driving through western washington along the coast and it was around 4 o'clock. The colours were green, grey, blue and then red orange! the sun was setting and I was trying to photograph it all. However, it can't do justice to the colours I remember. This morning I drew to Triadic Ballet. Schlemmer's organization of colour in space and I am finding the figure-like forms both fascinating and a slight-bit scary? No, just out of this universe. I have posted some of the drawings here.